I'm sorry I've been unactive, guys. I'm becoming worse and worse as the days go. I started a bad habit again, some know what I'm talking about. And I ran into another problem. Don't ask me what's wrong, because I honestly don't know what is wrong with me. Don't ask if I'm okay, because you know I'm lying when I say I'm fine. I'm just not good, so that's all. I don't like talking to anyone anymore but I don't know why. I feel like crying everyday and I wondered at one point where I'd go if I died. Don't worry about me. I just need thinking time. So I'll be on sometimes but I might not post. And I will be back.

Its okay blood, besides I get the same way I sometimes wander away from home (plus they don't seem to notice) and I trail off to the woods with my loyal cats.
So blue I know we all say were here for ya, and just that phrase doesn't seem to make anything better even if you feel your better off dead you know your just letting evil win
Once in seventh grade I was called :wimp, crybaby, whore. Even slut.
That time I felt like I was drowning without oxygen.
Then I didn't speak to anyone, I kept to myself, even if I was nearly choked to death.
But I kept to myself even if I felt like dying I ignored it and trugged through my hardship.
Blue what I want you to do is try not to ponder on your problem, because pondering wont do any good I know that because I did it before.
Just be safe ya hear, see ya later...Blue.

I hope you get better Blood.
I'll be here if you need to talk

Me too. Try to talk to someone talkibg helps. I know.

Yeah, it does help

Not anymore. When I talk, it doesn't help like it did. Especially when my mom lets it pass by. I guess she doesn't want to listen. I just don't have anymore motives. Suicide isn't an option that I'd ever think of again. Or at least after the 2nd time. Don't worry about me. I just have to suck it up.

Why don't you just try to talk about it with us? Sorry if it seems like I'm being pushy, but I just want to help. I feel helpless otherwise.

Talking can be your only answer, Blood

Why can't I stay quiet? You've all talked and helped me... but if I keep it bottled up and suffer, I'm still suffering anyway. At least then I won't complain or hurt anyone or cause pain other than upon myself, if not anyone. At this point, that Juvenile Rehabilitation Center seems like heaven. At least they celebrate holidays more than my family.

I don't know what I can do anymore. I gave up.

You don't have to talk if you don't want to. I will listen if you need to talk though.

You don't have to talk if you don't want to. I'm not forcing it on you, but I don't know what to do.

You're not alone, Blood. It might seem like you are, but you're not. There's someone who knows you are hurting, he knows what you're going through, but what he has in store for you later in life is so much better. You just have to trust him. Something good will come out of this. You might not see it now, but it will. I may not understand what you're going through, but I have been broken down before. I've gone through hard times. Please, just try to keep your head up and know that these things don't last forever.

Sorry this is happening, Taz. I'm not gonna ask you to talk or anything, I just hope it gets better soon.

Me too