Hi, hello. I don't have many words to help you, I'm not good at that, but I do know a website that has helped me in the past. It's called the thequietplaceproject.com , and its main goal is to provide a safe, positive place for encouragement and love towards those who are having a rough time. As I said, I'm no good with my words, but this is a really helpful website and I hope it works as well for you as it has me.
I hope you know that we all care so much for you, and I'm so sorry about what you're going through.